Writer’s Whimsy

WARNING: This is a post of whimsy and a stream of consciousness under the influence of a glass of wine and the pressure of a thirty minute countdown until my better half returns home.

LOCATION: Kitchen Table

DOING: Typing on iPad, iPod dock on with music on shuffle

My mind has been busy during the week since I have last posted. And I don’t mean with the humdrum of life, I mean between washing the dishes, going to work, picking out what to wear in the morning, cooking the tea etc.

It’s like my mind has developed it’s own way of occupying itself during those normally blank and serene moments.

It’s trying to problem solve the embryonic plot I have whirling around the recesses of my brain but it’s whirling so fast I can’t catch it. And when I try to, it ricochets off the wall of my consciousness and sets off down a different path.

And then I trance out to the musical accompaniment that is inevitably playing in the background.

This could be in the car on the way to or from work, in the kitchen when I am washing the dishes or in my mind when it wanders to the safety of musical verse.

Music is great for providing nostalgia. A time, a place, an emotion – sometimes all of the above. Then the threads of nostalgia weave me back into writer mode – how can I capture that? How can I describe that feeling? Would my characters feel like that?

Can I write that?

And then I panic.

I’ve become a ‘wannabe’ writer.

I’ve subscribed to a writing magazine.
I’m a member of writing forums.
I’ve signed up to a course.
I scour the competition pages.
I have index cards, A3 paper, a white board and marker pens.
I have a cloud based research account.
I have a writers notebook.
I read. Alot.
I have a bluetooth keyboard for my iPad.

But the only thing I can bring myself to write is this blog.

I have the ‘Writers and Artists Guide: How to Write’ on the table next to me. I picked it up from my bedside table at the same time I picked up this iPad. And instead of reading about writing, I opted to write instead.

Which I guess is good.

But something deep in my gut remains unfulfilled.

My characters aren’t fully formed, my plot is full of holes, my world is full of contradictions and my conflict is undetermined.

I want to create characters like the ones that lived with me when I was growing up, in fact sometimes still live with me now. It doesn’t take much to recall them but when they appear, they are as 3D and as comforting as they were when I first discovered them.

If I can’t create my own characters that I want to spend time with, fight for – even fight with – then this writing game might not be for me after all.

I’m a writer in crisis.

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Blog Life – My First Blog Award

This blog was ‘born’ on Friday 16th August and though I can’t quite believe it, it has already won an award thanks to Maddy over at beautify inside and out.

The award is the ‘Liebster’ award… [see cute shiny thing below] and is awarded to up and coming bloggers who have less than 200 followers.

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Of course, it doesn’t come without it’s terms and conditions – one of them being I have to answer 10 questions put to me by my nominator. I think this might be interesting for my readers or it might not be depending on the reason you read this blog!

1. Do you believe in reincarnation?

Yes. Though I have no evidence of this and I don’t believe that it necessarily happens to everyone, I believe that it is possible. This doesn’t mean I believe in God as I don’t think reincarnation and God are mutually exclusive concepts but that’s a debate for another day.

2. Who is you favourite author?

Ugh. I am a big reader and to pick one would be just too tragic. I like all manner of fiction from horror to romance to mystery to thriller to ‘chick-lit’…

3. What is your favourite reality TV show?

I don’t like the new generation of reality television such as TOWIE and the like but I do admit to watching some old school formats such as X Factor, Wife Swap, Come Dine With Me, Supernanny & Top Model. Unlike some people who watch these shows, I don’t pretend that they are profound or intellectual. I watch them for entertainment – and I’m cool with that.

4. Do you prefer lollies or chocolate?

Chocolate – every time…

5. What book has changed you?

I don’t have one specific one – I think every book you read changes you in some way, even if only in a small way.

6. Cats or dogs?

I have both cat and dog so to pick one would create a karmic divide in our household. I love both though, for the record. I get different things from both of them.

7 Would you go skinny dipping?

Well, yeah. I mean – why not?

8. Is lying bad?

As a general rule of thumb, yes. However, a lot depends on motive and therefore ‘white lies’ do have their place and are sometimes acceptable if they are for the greater good.

9. Do you wish to be famous?

No… I’m a private person. I fantasise about what it would be like sometimes but I never wish for it to be a reality. Seeing my book in print in Waterstones? Well, I could live with that…

10. Are you tidy or messy?

It depends on which zone of the house you look at and what time of the week it is. Everything has a cycle and has its turn being messy, tidy then messy again. It gets tidied in turn and I do strive for lots of tidy at once, sometimes it just doesn’t work. So I’ll guess I’m an ‘aspirational tidy’. Nothing is so messy that the floors or covered, that drawers won’t shut or that things can’t be found though… so yeah. Tidy…

*drum roll*

And now, I look to my fellow bloggers to select 10 other recipients of this lovely award who will in turn get to a) post the award on their blog b) answer 10 questions from me and c) ask 10 questions of another 10 unsuspecting bloggers.

It’s like… a virtual chain letter but nicer!

  1. http://halfdecentgigrider.wordpress.com/ – Great blogger with a great attitude
  2. http://forlackofabetternerd.wordpress.com/ – NYC resident with a unique take on life
  3. http://terriponce.com/ – A novelist with a great attitude who I’d like to get to know
  4. http://kategallagherya.wordpress.com/ – A novelist with a new book due out soon – great humorous blog
  5. http://ajw95.wordpress.com/ – An aspiring author like me who needs some encouragement and support to make it through the writing process
  6. http://musingsofanaspiringscribbler.wordpress.com/ – A fellow writer with her own view on fanfiction
  7. http://apageofheaven.wordpress.com/ – A book review blog where I will be sourcing some new reads
  8. http://juiceb23.wordpress.com/ – Show some support for Lucy who is nearly 30 and has a list of 30 things to do before her big 3-0 birthday
  9. http://myeyespygallery.wordpress.com/ – Awesome photographer with thoughtful accompanying narratives
  10. http://3stagesofgirl.com/ – Funny Mom-Blog – hilarious posts

And here are my questions for you guys (and please elaborate!)…

1. Where is your favourite place in the world?

2. What is your favourite smell?

3. If you could be someone else for the day, who would it be?

4. Which celebrity do you wish you could make disappear?

5. What is your biggest ambition?

6. What is your biggest regret?

7. What is your favourite room in the house?

8. What is your first ever memory?

9. What is your favourite song?

10. Tell me something really unique/strange/odd about yourself that not many people know.